I once heard that when you die, you relive every second of your life all over again. This is more than just your life flashing before your eye. Your whole “existence” relived as though you are living it for the first time. So that begs the question, your existence right at this moment: are you living it for the first time or reliving your whole life before die (which will happen within the next few seconds)?
Why do I feel like this is like a “Schrödinger’s cat” kind of question…
If this were true, while reliving your life would you consciously know you that are experiencing it again? If you are consciously aware, then you can most likely have the power to change things. And if you can change things, could you live your life the way you wanted it? Think about it… you could redo your awful high-school experience, not date that jack-ass in college, choose the career path that you really wanted, subtly hint to a dear friend they “may” have cancer and will die from it. If you are consciously aware of this ‘reliving’ experience you can make the life you wanted. Being consciously aware, you would already know everything and the actual outcome of the original path.
But you know… this “second chance” is not reality. You could try to be that evil persona that lives deep inside of you. That hidden persona that everyone has, but refuses to acknowledge. You can act out the hurt on all the people that you have wanted to hurt. Be the assassin, thief, marauder, sadist, monster of your dark thoughts. Morals, ethics, everything-out the window because there is no impact on anyone in reality. Your life is only all about you, isn’t it? Does it really matter what happens to other people, as long as you are satisfied? You become a serial killer. If you got caught, so what! You may be thrown in jail, you may get the death penalty-but that’s ok! Hey, you are about to die within the next few seconds in reality anyways. This whole “reliving your life again” is just playing out in your head. And in your head there are no consequences.
Well, you did just live the last moments of your actual life in your head replaying your life cast as Jack the Ripper. Is that really how you want your life to end? To be an eviscerating serial killer instead of someone who actually did a lot of good in their real life. Someone who didn’t intentionally murder anyone.
You got caught up in your last moments of who you wanted to be instead of reliving who you actually were.
So what are you: Alive or Dead?